Ug! I am so stressed out! I got an official offer from a clinic here today via e-mail and another is in talks. I had been thinking that I'd prefer option A over where I used to tech (option B). I've been talking with them about taking a position there as well. There are so many things to consider and let's face it, me being who I am, I'm terrified of both options!
Do I take more money for more hours where I will always be on with 2 other Dr's at a very busy practice who may or may not have time to help me if I have questions. Option A.
Or should I take a little less money for less hours with a few staff that I love at a clinic with HORRIBLE management. I'd basically be by myself for 2.5 days a week, but it's slower and there's a potential to buy it in a few years. Option B.
Grrrrr! I would just like God to tell me which would be best and where I will be less stressed.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Introducing..... Dr. Najarian!!!
Yay! I did it! I actually did it! I'm done with school and am now officially a Doctor of Veterinary Medicine! There is still so much that is unknown in regards to my future, but I am enjoying my victories thus far and trusting God to lead me where he wants me next.
Graduation weekend was wonderful. Pretty much my entire family was there (birth family included). My best girl-friend Katie came all the way from Oregon! It was so good seeing her, I miss her so much and she is always such a blessing to me.
I loved seeing how proud Rem was as I walked down the isle during the graduation ceremony. He had the BIGGEST smile on his face, which in turn made my smile even wider!
I am the luckiest girl in the world to have such a loving and supportive family and friends. I absolutely love that we all get along so well. We fit together like we've been living and celebrating together for years! The wonderful weekend ended with lots of packing and cleaning. Rem was a great help. It's so weird having someone besides my parents be there to help me and encourage me. Don't get me wrong, I like it and wouldn't trade it for anything. In all my dreaming, I just never thought that it would feel this good.
Moving back home is interesting to say the least. Don't have near the amount of space that I did at my apartment in Columbia - the loss of my enormous closet makes me want to cry. I really want a puppy, but Rem is right in that I should probably wait until I know where I'm going to be and if I have the time and money to invest in a new dog. But that doesn't mean that I won't encourage my parents to get one! I'll at least get my puppy fix that way!
Anyway, there will be tons more changes coming my way soon, I'm sure. I'll try to write more often as I know I've been neglectful lately (sorry). Till then keep safe and trust God.
Graduation weekend was wonderful. Pretty much my entire family was there (birth family included). My best girl-friend Katie came all the way from Oregon! It was so good seeing her, I miss her so much and she is always such a blessing to me.
I loved seeing how proud Rem was as I walked down the isle during the graduation ceremony. He had the BIGGEST smile on his face, which in turn made my smile even wider!
Anyway, there will be tons more changes coming my way soon, I'm sure. I'll try to write more often as I know I've been neglectful lately (sorry). Till then keep safe and trust God.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Mad About March
Sorry it's been so long since I blogged! Not that too many people really pay attention to what I write.
March is my favorite month, especially this year! Rem's birthday was great and then we left for Florida a few days later. Vacation was wonderful. We stayed in Ft. Lauderdale and took a short cruise to the Bahamas. The hotel and cruise weren't fantastic, but the company and good times were. Rem and I had a great time together - I can't wait to do it again!
I realized that I don't want to be away from home on my b-day again, though. It really wasn't celebrated because we were out of town, but my parents did take us out when we got back to make up for it. And there was cake! :)
Other than that, I've had 4 more interviews for an associate veterinary position. I really like one in Independence, but the owner is unsure that she can afford a full time associate. I spent all day yesterday at one in Gardner, and it was pretty nice too, but the Dr. is a bit more intimidating. I'm trying to trust God's timing and have faith in my abilities as well.
Anyway, it's exciting that I only have one more month of school left. Soon, I'll have to change this blog's description because I won't be a student anymore. I'll be a doctor!
March is my favorite month, especially this year! Rem's birthday was great and then we left for Florida a few days later. Vacation was wonderful. We stayed in Ft. Lauderdale and took a short cruise to the Bahamas. The hotel and cruise weren't fantastic, but the company and good times were. Rem and I had a great time together - I can't wait to do it again!
I realized that I don't want to be away from home on my b-day again, though. It really wasn't celebrated because we were out of town, but my parents did take us out when we got back to make up for it. And there was cake! :)
Other than that, I've had 4 more interviews for an associate veterinary position. I really like one in Independence, but the owner is unsure that she can afford a full time associate. I spent all day yesterday at one in Gardner, and it was pretty nice too, but the Dr. is a bit more intimidating. I'm trying to trust God's timing and have faith in my abilities as well.
Anyway, it's exciting that I only have one more month of school left. Soon, I'll have to change this blog's description because I won't be a student anymore. I'll be a doctor!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
To: A Friend Long Gone
It breaks my heart that you gave up on us,
It hurts to know you never really tried.
We were so close for so long
I never thought you’d throw it all aside.
Was I ever anything more than a fan of yours?
Did you ever care about more than you?
I was under the impression that I was there,
That my feelings and opinions mattered too.
I can see you’ve moved on and I’ve been replaced
With several others who’ll give you your due.
Just don’t expect me to jump up and celebrate
And run back whenever you want me to.
The loyalty I once felt is faded,
Worn down from years of abuse.
I’ve grown up and accepted your choice;
For your fickle “friendship” I no longer have use.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Holy Crap!
Yesterday someone pointed out that in exactly 4 months I'll be a doctor! Wow! I can't believe it!!! It doesn't seem like it's been almost 4 years! And as exciting as it is, I'm not sure I feel ready - in fact I know I don't feel ready. I'm jugling the busy work that accompanies this block and trying to get everything together so I can finally send out my resumes this weekend. Yikes! Anyway, I'm writing this between classes, so I'd better go, I'll try and write more later!
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Post Christmas Blues
So I'm back in Columbia after a wonderful week-long break for Christmas. It sucks. I miss Remington so much already! We're kinda ridiculous like that and enjoy being around each other all the time. Anyway, it doesn't help that I really don't enjoy this rotation (pathology). It's just a whole bunch of cutting up dead things, getting smelly, and then doing a load of busy work. Blech!
Christmas was absolutely amazing though! Rem came to our house for the whole day! He completely spoiled me rotten! I didn't expect ANY presents from him because he already bought me a new Macbook Air last month when my computer keeled over AND he bought super great seats and took me to see The Nutcracker last Friday! WAAAAAY too much already right? This boy just doesn't know when to stop (and I secretly love him even more for that)! He got me a really cute pair of shoes I'd been eyeing and a brand new, limited edition, red Kitchen Aide mixer!!! Wow! I don't deserve such spoilage!
Suffice it to say, I spent to much and spoiled him too! He got a ton of stylish clothes, books, a bluetooth, as well as some other items he really wanted. I also got him a massaging bed rest, but we ended up taking it back because it wasn't exactly what I expected and vibrated more than massaged. But that's okay, he said he'd rather put the money into starting our salt water fish tank. He's really excited to start that up - maybe we'll be able to do some more around his birthday. He was also able to use some gift cards he received to buy a new Xbox, as his pooped out a couple of days before Christmas. He's not a big gamer, but he really likes to play every once in a while to relax.
I hope that I can get back home this weekend for New Years! My friend Tammi is coming into town and I'm hoping to get to spend a little time with her. It's weird though, because the group of people that used to hang out when she still lived in town is so different and dispersed now. I invite several people from that group to do things and hang out, but they never do. I know the Sunday School class has always kind of had cliques, but
NEVER like this. I've completely lost a best friend from college - she's demonstrated that she doesn't REALLY care on numerous occasions. And it just plain annoys me that no one from their group ever darkens the doors of our get-togethers - it's like they are soooo much better than everyone else. They won't show up unless one of them is hosting or planning the event. They disgust me.
Anyway, I still have to sit here in this room for another hour. My homework was frustrating me so much this morning that I plan on completely ignoring it until tomorrow!
Christmas was absolutely amazing though! Rem came to our house for the whole day! He completely spoiled me rotten! I didn't expect ANY presents from him because he already bought me a new Macbook Air last month when my computer keeled over AND he bought super great seats and took me to see The Nutcracker last Friday! WAAAAAY too much already right? This boy just doesn't know when to stop (and I secretly love him even more for that)! He got me a really cute pair of shoes I'd been eyeing and a brand new, limited edition, red Kitchen Aide mixer!!! Wow! I don't deserve such spoilage!
Suffice it to say, I spent to much and spoiled him too! He got a ton of stylish clothes, books, a bluetooth, as well as some other items he really wanted. I also got him a massaging bed rest, but we ended up taking it back because it wasn't exactly what I expected and vibrated more than massaged. But that's okay, he said he'd rather put the money into starting our salt water fish tank. He's really excited to start that up - maybe we'll be able to do some more around his birthday. He was also able to use some gift cards he received to buy a new Xbox, as his pooped out a couple of days before Christmas. He's not a big gamer, but he really likes to play every once in a while to relax.
I hope that I can get back home this weekend for New Years! My friend Tammi is coming into town and I'm hoping to get to spend a little time with her. It's weird though, because the group of people that used to hang out when she still lived in town is so different and dispersed now. I invite several people from that group to do things and hang out, but they never do. I know the Sunday School class has always kind of had cliques, but
NEVER like this. I've completely lost a best friend from college - she's demonstrated that she doesn't REALLY care on numerous occasions. And it just plain annoys me that no one from their group ever darkens the doors of our get-togethers - it's like they are soooo much better than everyone else. They won't show up unless one of them is hosting or planning the event. They disgust me.
Anyway, I still have to sit here in this room for another hour. My homework was frustrating me so much this morning that I plan on completely ignoring it until tomorrow!
Friday, November 18, 2011
Worry-Wart
I have learned that I have a special talent. I am exceptionally good at freaking myself out. I guess I always knew I was a good worrier, a scaredy-cat. But sometimes it just goes too far. Even when I was little, I'd come up with these elaborate scenarios of "what if". What if.... the house caught on fire or there was a tornado? Then in my teen years it became, what if I were abducted or raped. Now that I'm in a relationship, I find it's what if he cheats on me or is secretly looking at porn?
It's getting rediculous and beginning to interfere with real life. I'm sick of being scared. I'm tired of spending hours worrying and getting myself worked up over things that aren't reality. Yes, I suppose these things could happen, but the likelihood that they will is very slim. I have to relax. I have to trust that God is in control. I know beyond any doubt that I would survive all these scenarios, maybe move past them even, but the fear of "what if" keeps me paralyzed. It's stunting my growth and at times threatens my relationships.
And the most recent thing that has been interrupted by my worrying (and now my blogging) is studying for the NAVLE - which is yet another source of fear and stress. I'm nervous (terrified really) of not passing. Yes, there's a second opportunity to pass, but I DO NOT want to be the one who has to take it again. The shame, embarrassment, and just plain hassle of doing it all over again weigh on me and sometimes make it hard to breathe. I'm trying, but even in the trying, feel like I'm already failing.
God please fix me. Please give me a sense of peace that I know I am unable to obtain on my own right now. Calm me down and help me to do my best, both on the test and with my life. It's all yours anyway.
It's getting rediculous and beginning to interfere with real life. I'm sick of being scared. I'm tired of spending hours worrying and getting myself worked up over things that aren't reality. Yes, I suppose these things could happen, but the likelihood that they will is very slim. I have to relax. I have to trust that God is in control. I know beyond any doubt that I would survive all these scenarios, maybe move past them even, but the fear of "what if" keeps me paralyzed. It's stunting my growth and at times threatens my relationships.
And the most recent thing that has been interrupted by my worrying (and now my blogging) is studying for the NAVLE - which is yet another source of fear and stress. I'm nervous (terrified really) of not passing. Yes, there's a second opportunity to pass, but I DO NOT want to be the one who has to take it again. The shame, embarrassment, and just plain hassle of doing it all over again weigh on me and sometimes make it hard to breathe. I'm trying, but even in the trying, feel like I'm already failing.
God please fix me. Please give me a sense of peace that I know I am unable to obtain on my own right now. Calm me down and help me to do my best, both on the test and with my life. It's all yours anyway.
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