Saturday, February 27, 2010

Get thee behind me....bunny?

Okay, so valentine's is over, the candy is all gone.  But, unfortunately for me, the stores have skipped right over St. Patty's day and have moved straight into easter!  Those little bunnies named Sunshine, Yummy, Honey, Topper, Flopper, and Hopper stare at me from their pastel picture boxes.  "Eat us, eat us," they cry.  The temptation, the torture!  I've got a little over a month before easter is here!  Will my waistline survive?

Thursday, February 25, 2010


One more day.  One more day.  One more day.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Love Never Fails

Love is not proud
Love does not boast
Love after all
Matters the most

Love does not run
Love does not hide
Love does not keep
Locked inside

Love is the river that flows through
Love never fails you

Love will sustain
Love will provide
Love will not cease
At the end of time

Love will protect
Love always hopes
Love still believes
When you don’t

Love is the arms that are holding you
Love never fails you

When my heart won’t make a sound
When I can’t turn back around
When the sky is falling down
Nothing is greater than this
Greater than this

Love is right here
Love is alive
Love is the way
The truth the life

Love is the river than flows through
Love is the arms that are holding you
Love is the place you will fly to
Love never fails you

Oh, Jesus!  My heart shudders!  Why am I so afraid?  You have been faithful to me and I know that you will always be faithful.  So why do I feel this panic?  Why all this worry?  Why can't I simply rest in you.  Do I really believe you can't see me through this?  Do I not doubt you, but myself?  I am faced with dying to myself again.  Dying to the dream.  It's yours.  Do with me and my life as you will.

*Sigh*  I feel your peace washing over my heart.  Thank you for believing in me even when I cannot.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Icky Icky Radiology


Radiology exam - DONE!  Don't feel too horible about it because we don't have our grades back yet.  I'm sure I'd be super depressed and in full-on panic mode if I knew my raw score.  Last year, this test was severely curved, so I'm counting on consistancy!

I was invited to two different activities tonight, but after a test like that, I just don't feel like doing anything but sitting on the couch and watching some mind-numbing drama on TV.  Griswald likes it when I take the night off.  He curls up in my lap and just purrs away!  Sweet boy.

It's a funny feeling when hope dies.  Kind of a hollow acceptance.  Another step forward, no looking back, absolutely no regrets.  We're going to talk about perserverance in small group tomorrow.  I still have to finish the chapter, but was already struck with the words of Jesus in Luke 22:31.  Here's my version (insert your own name if you like)

"Lisa, Lisa, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, Lisa, that your faith may not fail.  And when you have turned back, strengthen those around you."

Wow.  God prays for me!?!  How absolutely amazing, awe-inspiring, and humbling!  Before our trials come to us, they are first passed through Christ's prayers and the merciful hand of God.  Knowing that I am being sifted and put through the flames for a purpose gives me strength to endure whatever comes my way.  School challenges, illness, hardship, heartache, misunderstanding, alienation, persecution, doubt, finance troubles, injury, and even death - all of it has been bathed in prayer and aproved by God for my refinement. 

Praise be to Him who has saved me!  All honor and glory I give to you, Lord Jesus.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Guess Who?

I had an unexpected visitor tonight.  Someone I never thought would call me wanting to come over.  Someone I never thought would choose to confide in me and have lengthy conversation about his personal life.  AND  he wanted me to move in with him next year!  HA!!!  It was a bit surreal, and I only hope I helped a little, just by listening, and that what he's going through gives him a little more compassion towards others in the future.

Again, just a really strange visit...and now I should probably finish cramming for tomorrow's test!

Monday, February 1, 2010


I don't know if it was the gloomy weather, but today was icky.  It started off fine.  Got a B on my test.  Nothing unusual or earth-shattering happened in class.  But when I was studying for my quiz this afternoon, I just felt....burdened.  There's really no other way of explaining it.  A heaviness in my chest, a sort of unexplained sadness. 

It didn't leave me until late tonight.  All I can come up with is that it was Satan messing with my head.  I don't like him much.  He plays dirty and makes me doubt myself.  He makes me question and worry about things that don't matter and that God has taken care of, or better yet, never accused me of!  The devil just wants to upset the peace of Christ that is in me.

I refuse to let him.