On the edge

Well, I made it through another week.  God pulled me through these first two tests.  I can't pretend that the next two don't worry me still - they're the classes where my grades are the lowest.  I hate this feeling.  The uncertainty, the barely containable fear, the unanswered "what-if's".  I am trying so desperately to cling to His promise.  To hold fast to the love I know He has for me.  To let go of what I want so badly.  It is a constant struggle - I feel like I'm always balancing on the side of a cliff and any small breeze may push me over the edge.  I pray that I will be diligent and wise.  I pray that I will be strong enough to survive, whatever the outcome.